Little Life Lessons!

       Think about the past the love the pain. Understand its over and now you move on to a new day. You deal with things that cross your path each and everyday. I don't know who all has been hurt in crossing my path but as I grow I know my heart is sorry for the damage that I have inflicted upon those who tried to be by my side and help me be a woman. I had to break the wall of hate that surrounded my soul and make a change to be a mother and wife. I had to push out all my tears and my anger and make my living space better. I had to live for someone other then just myself. I had to open up my eyes and see that the people I thought were my friends were never there for me. Time to grow as a woman and leave the girl behind. The girl who lived such a hard life and followed the wrong paths. The choices I make now have an impact on my children and so I must show them the direction and hope they stay on that road.  Still dealing with the confusion of the people in my life. Who is for me and who is for them self. Mixed signals send my heart into a twisted mixture of anger and disappointmeant. There is never a friend who is truly for you and if there is where is mine? Where is this person who is suppose to let me cry and laugh at all the dumb things we do? where is this person that I can just talk to? As I grow I grow alone, I suppose what is meant to be will be, alone or with people who care I will be the best woman I know to be. As my children grow and learn Ill let them know that some bridges you just don't burn. You have to understand that time will pass you by and when you come to you realize that nobody loves you as you do! you must make your own choices no one can make them for you. You let people push you in a direction because you are unsure of who you are, but once you find yourself you will come to see that people will walk away that's right up and leave. If they cant run you then they don't want to be near you. That just lets us know they weren't who we thought they were. New people will cross your path make sure they are who they are and let them in with the stipulation of your freedom and your heart to grow as you please. Let them know you are a real person and not a puppet, your not their toy or their slave of life. Lessons are gained by hearing what others have to say you take it for what it is and move on to another day. dream with your heart and soul and let all the bad go!! Don't care stuff around that wont let you smile and feel free to be who you want to be. Speak up and let the world hear. I am me and no one can take that away from me.      Jess